About Stella

About Stella

As of August 16 2004, Stella will matriculate at the University of Southern California in Los Angeles. She had previously been rejected by UC Berkerley and the University of Chicago, where she was enticed by the concept of the "life of the mind" as well as gorgolyes/amazing architechure. See, Stella has since 2001, haboured thoughts of attending a prestigious school where its reputation and age are reflected in its archiac style. So (the prospectus of) U of C, naturally played toward her desires.

Actually these schools were already discounted choices from her days at ACJC, where Stella realised her brain was not smart enough for Stanford or any other Ivy League instituition. However now that she is going to attend USC in LA, she might become more realistic and materialistic as the city itself.(But hopefully not vapid and shallow)This might not be such as bad thing as it will spur her to be more hardworking in all aspects of life, which translates into better transcript grades and a more spectacular school career for her (And more second chances at the "GREAT" schools she missed out on applying in 2003). Then she might start to think that she has transcended upwards in terms of intelligence. So this may be good for her self-esteem as well.

Stella loves to seek the company of individuals who are at least of one the following-optimistic, upbeat, fun-loving, intelligent, ambitious, quirky, imaginative, interesting or weird. It also extends to the kind of males that she is attracted to. Stella has a preference for quirky/weird/nerdy/dorky/intelligent/scholarly types who nonetheless maintain some degree of "adorableness". She also thinks that eye-glasses are cute. So if you are an average joe trying to be cool/cool jock/metrosexual or high maintainence type, please stay away from her. She'll talk to you as a human being though-if you are nice and don't critisise her eccentricity.

Recently, Stella has become delusional, as pointed out by a friend. Fortunately she has discovered a way of existing in the real world simultaneously. Some interesting signs have benefited as a result of this paradigm, including better writing ability and style as well as an increased potential to make normal conversation/small talk with the average citizen. Now she is working on how to go out more often and enagage in more activities by expanding her social circle.

At last an imaginative one

Death from Birth

In my birth,
A cold meteorite gathered me from space;
left me standing out nowhere in the midst.
And there was where I first saw the morning star

Each year I caught a glimpse
Of that same bright morning star,
until the fourth watch,
where it shot toward me.
Landing to hit me with a dizzy

Where the fire of the morning star
once burned for a spectacle.
It now engulfed my entirety in flames.
That blew me instantly.

I was then born again.

Where do I even begin-Prose

Where do I even begin-Prose

Where do i even begin. Where from do i tell. The uglyness of it all delevates me to another misery. The misery of immoral ladden guilt and infringement into one. It henceforth appears to be neither therapeutic purgation or balmy comfort or effective repentance. Just like that. Wasted. Chested. Robbed. Those are the three words.

Pain is not a good word to describe it. In fact, an expository style of telling makes for no good an interpretation. Because words can only illuminate the objective, thus failing to capture the inherant soul of the feeling. Devices such as mataphors may help a little. Albeit alas, I am not the best craftaman for such usage. I attempt however to secretly articulate. For being an open book to friends may not seem like such a good idea.

The dilemma then arises of whether to reveal or conceal. The left hemisphere of the brain no doubt favours the latter option, Being more secularly practical, it is more or less comcerned in a manner which most people think- to portray oneself in the best light possible. The opposite counterpart, of which is more akin to my personality gives impulsive thought and performs a srange habit of wanting other people to either discover or hear from my lips, the darkest, most insidious, gory details. Can this be explained by the science of psychology? The desire not to camoflage the sprit of the inner soul.

Book Review:The Nine Secrets Of Women Who Get What They Want by Kate White

Some say that the best way to lead is to show by example. Kate White applied this to writing her first self-help book and I must say that it does work.

See the problem with many paperback self-helps these days lies with the problem of having too much theoreticality with principles. The agenda is primarily driven by large macro ideas. In a somewhat utopian sense, they sound good albeit without the realistic back-up of example.

This book does the reverse without compromising orgainised thought. Sure, Kate White leads the reader by micro example, in which case are her own observations.
But remember that this lass is a editor-in-chief of a magazine, she must have the skills of catagorisation. Therefore, although the sentences run as if she were dispensing her pearls of personal advice to you, you still manage not to lose focus from the central message of the topic chapter.

Now lets talk about the general agenda of the book.

If I could synopsise the advice of the book in one saying, it would be just 'CARPE DIEM'. Targeted at young women, one of the most important messages is to be bold. I suppose if one is so, then all "right" avenues of thought mentality fall into place quite easily. For boldness translates into a disregard for silly route rules (wjat she calls 'good girl' mentality) that may quite possibly impede chances of opportunism. Kate White illustrates through personal example of how gutsy young women have trumped more qualified others into grabbing opportunities which neccessitated sometimes shrewd tactics. She isn't bashful about revealing her own "exploits" too.

This book will be useful to anyone and a must read for all ambitious young women. I read it when i was 14 and found it to make sense and to make valuable practical advice when i re-read it 4 years later.