She that i never want to be

Sometimes when women don't live up to ideal, being only a small fry lesser character, of daily
doings that are inconsequential to the lives of others, of selfish concerns that never expand
beyong to the realm of the great. I often wonder if it was my
own stupidity, ignorance or fault that I never saw it coming. Such things are not
a problem on their own, it only annoys me to no end when you have to deal with extended
contact with them.

A letter to you

Dear You,

I find it extremely delightful that our conversation is of much value to the sanity of my soul.
Though we are seperated by the space of lands and waters, the wonders of technology have
enabled us to connect at our convenience. It has been a great pleasure engaging with you in the
exploration of the human imagination, spirit, ambition and desire. You and I might have
uncannily similar thoughts, styles and metaphors of descriptions, which intrigues me to no end
as I often wonder if the both of us were meant to cross paths. I find you an interesting person
and something tells me that you reciprocate the same too about me. It is also very strange
that my idle thoughts often surface the possibility of us creating memories together. Perhaps
in the future we may, perhaps we may not, it is not up to us to decide. If it happens, I hope we can create more than my mind can create, and if not, I can relish in the fantasy of them.

Have a nice day ahead,
Stella

A Prayer to God

Dear Heavenly Father,

God I give thanks that you granted me the chance the last time. Lord, You had answered my prayer that I had asked for. It was very small, and perhaps of no vested interest, or benefit to anyone other than myself. It had been a selfish request but you granted it to me. I would like to think that it made some effect in your grand plan, but I don't know. I first asked that I bid to you whatever you asked of me and I did. Lord, you granted that. I asked Lord that you let me go to the place I wanted at the last minute when neither time nor my authority was on my side. Lord you granted that.

Lord you granted me the chance to meet, see and help people who dedicated their blood, sweat and tears to something larger than their lives. While they toiled, I made less than their dedication and slipped under the radar. I felt guilty, I felt bad. Now Lord, if you think that it is fitting, I ask that you let me be in their shoes.

Lord, I humbly ask for your guidance. If this is what you approve and want me to embark upon, I pray that you give me the stamina, will and grace to see that it happens. If this is what you want me to do, I am your servant at call. I pray that you let my thoughts materialise into the actions that you see fit. I pray that you will lead me to find the people who will believe in my plans and who will work with me to create those plans. Though again I know that time is not on my side, I pray that you will grant me for the doors of access to be open in accordance with your calendar. You gave me the gift to see O God, now let me bring that gift back to you.

I pray that your plans dictate and lead the way with this.

In your son's name I pray.

Amen

My Baby

Its always strange how convenient and stressful owning your own vehicle can be. No longer do you need to utilise public transport or wait for a friend to give you a lift, your own transportation means are at your disposal anytime and anywhere you want. This however is a misfortune in disguise.

Now you have to contend with the possibility of scratching your car by accident, the pressure of driving safely on the road, and most of all, the huge hassle of having to park and god forbid, parallel parking. I suppose i cannot complain now that I own my very own car, but its like taking care of a baby. Cute but alot of trouble involved.

Foolish Heart

I don't need my rationale self to tell me that my heart bleeds and longs for things/entities
that are unreachable. Some perhaps forever, and some best decided to the starts. At some point something in me snaps "Its is just not going to happen."

The problem with me is that i have a great sense of possibility and
you can see where it becomes a double edged sword. More
importantly, I should know that what will be mine at the end
of the day will be mine somehow and if it isn't, I can revel
in the fantasy of it.

The Soothsayer

The Soothsayer

Sheesh. Not so loud. I have to tell you something. This so

exciting and mysterious and will make people's hearts pound.

It has to do with some people's fortunes. I am going to make these people
famous. Yes, I am going to make them famous, and some of them very rich.
Some of them will be bewildered beyond their wildest dreams,
others would have secretly or otherwise habored these desires in their
hearts. No coincidences here, the cosmos have lined up and I have met
some of them. But the moral of the story is, I will make them become
somebodies in this world. I don't think any of them will ever
regret it. I know who these people are, you might be able to guess a few of them already but I cannot tell you their names just yet. You just wait and see, they will all be reknowned and respected people in their own right. The days will come before them one day, it all hangs in the stars.

Dreaming of you

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I'd wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

Cuz I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you even see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close
But so far, all I have are dreams of you
So, I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you(Yes, I do)

I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me

Dreaming of you-Selena