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Caterpillar days past. Butterfly dreams. Emerging from the chrysalis.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

The Man I want to be

I tell this with an eager but heavy heart. Once upon a time from afar out in the fields I was madly in love with a young woman. I grew rice crops and sold them for a living with my father, sometimes we had little, other times we had none. I was a farmer boy and she, the baron's daughter, with more than ever to spare. I dream everyday of owning the lands that the fields spread upon with my hard earned work, blood, sweat and tears.

A beautiful girl of kind soul, intelligent wit but a shrewd heart. I pursued her out of admiration, infatuation and attraction. Alas, she turned me down and broke my heart. She told me that time will make a better man out of me, and parted me goodbye as she walked into the dusk away from the fields.

But I know that the young woman whom I love is going to marry a Prince from another land. I cannot judge her for the choice she makes today. I am only a farmer's son. How can I ever possibly, compare to be like her Prince, so I might hold the standard as her suitor. But I tell myself that the day will eventually come, the day of gold harvest and sunshine blessings will be reaped from my hands. I will conquear all the lands that the Prince today calls his land. What toil I on will eventually be mine, and maybe then, she will regret marrying the Prince. But maybe when that day comes, I hope she won't be the one I love to be waiting for me.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Being Happy

What does being happy mean?

Getting an A on the statistics final that you slogged all month for?
The diploma that you received from that Ivy League school?
The investment banking job on Wall Street you got?
Getting your 6 figure paycheck?

Your crush who finally agreed to go out on a date with you?
The sexual gratification that came with making love?
The joy of seeing your childhood friend again after a long time?
Spending time with your family and friends?

Eating ice-cream?
Eating sashimi at an expensive Japanese restaurant?
The retail therapy you got while shopping on Rodeo Drive?
Losing 15 pounds after a month at the gym?

Tell me what makes you happy.