Competitive without Competition

I am sitting in the computer lab of the business school right now, trying to fuse my creative juices into formulating something which doesnt reek of practicality or anything related to the malevolent and mind numbing nature of business school. The only reason why I have to be in this school is because of one of two of my majors-Accounting, and to begin with was the result of parental coercion.

The problem with me is that though I want so badly to be intensely scheming and would like to think of myself as a competitive, cold creature of Machiavellian values, I simply hate the nature of competition. A paradox isnt it? An individual who is competitive by nature who hates competition? Perhaps this has to do with the fact that I really suck at most things that people do. In fact, I can only list a few things that I am better at the general populace, and this does not really count, for I only do better than average only to be beaten by some other individuals.

Such is the nature of the "wheeling-dealing" in our world.